Wednesday, February 18, 2009
title:{redox}
Things have gone this ugly way.
It seemed like i have been pushed off a cliff,
or banged by a car...
But life still goes on.
Study... Chem...
REDOX
Oxidation:
for oxidation to happen:
-gain oxygen
-lose hydrogen
-lose electrons
-increase in oxidation state.
Reduction:
for reduction to happen:
-lose oxygen
-gain hydrogen
-gain electrons
-decrease in oxidation state.
REDUCING/OXIDISING AGENTS:
Reducing agents in a reaction reduces th other reactant.
itself gets OXIDISED.
Examples :
- potassium iodide (which turns from colourless to brown when oxidised)
-hydrogen peroxide
Oxidising agents in a reaction oxidises th other reactant.
itself gets REDUCED.
Examples :
-Potassium dichromate(turns from ornages to green when reduced)
-Potassium permanganate (turns from purple to colourless when reduced)
that's redox.
3:51 PM;
title:{past;present;future;}
like a fish out of water,
i'm struggling for every breath i make.
Every step I take i fall down harder...
thinking about how someone will forgive you ?
It's not possible; i learnt.
Sometimes you feel like it's the right thing to do.
But happens that it's the worst mistake ever made.
Such foolishness.
I've found back the truth ,
but in return i lost many things.
Truth hurts, undeniably..
This society doesn't allow any mistakes;
Once you do one,
everyone will take turns to give you yet another tight slap on the face.
yes, and th tight slaps are coming for me.
i guess perhaps Mrs Ess was right about the part that
there are no wrong/right answers.
it's just how you explain them.
&i really can't
There's no use in mulling an answer to lie;
there's no use in continuing the lie.
Since it has been said;
tell the truth, get past my conscience.
and face the consequences of the things i did.
might not always be pleasant.
but that's the way to go to amend.
get past my conscience. yes.
& what if the person doesn't forgive you ..?
that's th consequence for your own doing ...
that's life.
What would you choose?
A lie that brings a smile?
or A truth that brings a tear?Labels: heart-talk.
3:20 PM;
Monday, October 20, 2008
title:{失望。}
有时真的不了解。
可能活在一个梦幻的游乐园里太久了。
应该长大了吧。
原本已为事事都很顺利。
其实那只是谎言。
看我这个样子。
事情会顺利？
please lah 长大。
现在一个错误都不能允许。
会越陷越深。
我真得不能这样下去。
10:26 PM;
Sunday, October 19, 2008
title:{}
forget it. i need this computer now.
yeah.
you know it sucks when people don't comprehend you.
Yeah I'm bad at words.
that's true, i admit.
but you make me out like i'm so terrible.
Am I?
i don't flirt.
believe it or not. up to you.
I'm starting to think this wouldn't work out.
i try my best to trust and not to change otherz
&look i feel like someone's trying to change me.
I'm not perfect.
take it or leave it.
9:42 PM;
title:{痛。}
我不要那么痛。
可是我的心已破裂。
9:28 PM;
Thursday, October 02, 2008
title:{Don't Give Up.}
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill.
When the funds are low, but the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must but don't Quit.
Life is queer with it's twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns.
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won, had he stuck it out.
Dont' give up though the pace seems slow,
You might succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man.
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup.
And he learned too late, when that night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint to the clouds of doubt.
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar.
So stick to the fight with your hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.Labels: poem
8:28 PM;
title:{darn.}
// i think you don't know.
how it feels like to get under useless pressure//
How many times, you told me?
Not to waste money?
If mama say me i nothing to say le lah!
But you?
you?
Buy branded goods, go drink booze.
WE live where? HDB .
Act atas for??
You come home just take money.
Treat our home as what?
BANK?
Credit card bill go BOOM.
I dont see you changing anyway.
You ask me whether im guilty.
Yes , I am.
Of course i am.
I boomed my bill 3 times.
You say singtel count by minute.
Not good right?
THEN CUT THE DARNED LINE.
You say if i get back bad results I go die.
Great.
I'll prove to you otherwise.
I'll get THE BEST I CAN.
I won't die.
Fired up. I'm not letting go.
I'm not letting your irrational remarks
and unfeeling comments affect me.
I'll prove it.
I'm not that weak little girl you can bully.
I'm not that young girl that you used to hit.
I'm me.
I'm strong.
And I will never let you have a chance to hit me.
Not anymore.
You say I'm ill-mannered.
YOU TEACH ME ONE MAH.
.
forget it .
Time to study.
I'm not letting some stupid guy destroy my day.
Or rather one stupid uncle.Labels: thoughts;
8:03 PM;
Friday, September 05, 2008
title:{2:26am}
Look at the time.
Everyone's asleep;
But i've been left here pondering.
Since young, dad has told me a few lines i can't forget.
"You are the youngest, you have no right to speak"
"Don't ever interrupt when I am talking"
"You better don't cry, if I ever see you cry , you'll get it from me"
"You better don't sulk when you're eating"
All these essentially tell me that
I. am supposed. to show that . I am not sad.
Even if I am really sad.
and that
I. am. not allowed to speak. cry . or stand up for myself
no matter what happens.
I'm nothing but a puppet.
A doll with no emotions.
I suppose I suddenly can't get used to being free of control.
I try to change how I hide my emotions.
I try to tell the truth.
But it ain't working .
Sometimes I wanna take a gun and shoot myself.
Maybe by then I can finally stop making these stupid mistakes.
Cus all the mistakes I do are breaking me inside.
I feel it,
I feel myself disintegrating any moment.
If a random person were to tap on my shoulders.
I think I might crumble.
I'm unwilling.
But yet I still make those mistakes.
Stubborn you can say.
Too stubborn.
I SAY i would change
but look at it.
nothing comes out of it
I still do the same old thing.
Th words you say.
Is already equilvalent to a couple of slaps.
Perhaps I can finally wake up.
Perhaps I can finally break free and change.
2:26 AM;
Thursday, September 04, 2008
title:{sadness}
cancel out all th pain I feel.
cancel these sad thoughts festering my mind.
bite tht finger;
&th pain will go;
It'll be the end of my life the moment I make another mistake.
So don't.
8:40 PM;
title:{all it takes;}
Everything's destroyed;
Devastation brought to this land which I stepped on.
Putting both my hands in front of my face;
I see;
Blood.
Was I th one,
Who did all these terrible things?
The truth never hides itself.
Looking at th blood, I deeply understand.
It was me who made this mess.
All it took, was a silly mistake.
A terrible one.
To destroy everything in a second.
I don't wish that i'll be forgiven anyway;
Who would show mercy to someone who has no compassion?
Who would care even if that heartless person died?
Who would?
Even I would not forgive myself for being like that.
Leave me to die. To rot.
Take a gun. Shoot that bullet through my empty brain;
And you've gotten rid of a monster.
If it doesn't kill me;
Throw me into a fire or something.
Maybe all that fire would burn away th evil parts of me;
7:55 PM;
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
title:{broken}
the words you said have broken me inside out;
I can't forget;
I can't forget th pain you gave me;
The mean words you say ring in my mind like a fire alarm;
I can't comprehend this pain I feel.
You make me happy yet you hurt me so.
You're the fire that burns me darling,
but yet you give me warmth;
8:58 PM;
Sunday, August 31, 2008
title:{}
i don't like it when i'm caged like a bird.
9:09 PM;
Saturday, August 30, 2008
title:{my angel;}
my little miracle.
Don't go away.
I'm grabbing you as tight as I can.
Don't ever go.
you give me warmth;
&a shoulder when I need one;
hugging you was the warmest thing that happened in my cold life.
holding me tightly in your arms gave me security like no other source;
" but what if....
;you were to leave one day? "
Sometimes i really wonder.
Maybe I might make you so angry suddenly one day.
Like how I did to aurora.
" &you'll leave me too.
;likehow she did. "
If you hear my prayers;
" I wish that when I'm not there to hug him;
;You'll be there to hug him, God. "
" & that we'll never be apart,
Even if the world fell apart; "
9:54 PM;
title:{sky}
yah.
at least my report card for this common test looks better liao.
no more 4 red lines. (:
got improvement.
EOYs are coming already.
sigh time just whoosh-ed by.
it was e first day of school in mayflower...
*blink*
...and look it's nearly time for o levels already.
Sometimes when I look at the sky.
I wonder what would I be ten years down th road ,
would I be happier? or would it be worse?
would I still be stuck at square one?
or would I complete th snakes&ladders of life?
Idk.
But I know.
The future's is there for me to make a change;
9:44 PM;
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
title:{heart-wrenching.}
sigh yiruma's pieces has pulled my heartstrings again.
Every song like got this story behind it...
Feels sad luh. hais.
you don't give me the right feel luh laogong...
I feel so insecure now o.o
Like you playing with me only.
Idk.
i hope not bah.
how i were to know if he were lying? he wouldn't say so.
so whatever.
Stop thinking so much jody. LOL
ok luh,
Chemistry wasn't that good, but didn't fail. b4
Physics was average bah. a2
English is basically screwed at a b4.
Chinese at a c6. epic disaster.
SS was a miracle among everything. a1
Amaths didn't fail. yay! b3
Emaths a1, alot better than what's expected of me.
Conclusion: 5 improve 2 deprove. 2 languages deprove. lmao.
JIAYOU. EOy coming sia.
time flies.
It felt like just yesterday I was at the first day of school in 2oo8.
It felt like just yesterday I was at OBS.
But look. it's the end of august now.
next year > o levels. LOL
and boom. SPA o level coming up too.
Scary how time flies.
time is superrr precious now.
8:14 PM;
Sunday, August 17, 2008
title:{}
i'mlosinglight;
Sometimes I feel so lost I don't know whatta do.
6:30 PM;
title:{COMMONTESTS}
COMMONTESTS
are overr <3
But it's not time to rest still .
><
basically my fav subject, chemistry ,is screwed.
as we may know, 3J hasn't had proper teachers the whole year.
The only subjects that have no change of teachers were history and maths.
Everything else changed,
End up we lose out on some knowledge. o.o.
&great.nowwehaveareallyNICEenglishteacher.
whycan'twejusthavemsHoasourenglishteacherthewholeyear?
rahh.this is life.
Things come and go not just because you want them to.
enough of ranting.
Yesterday went out w bernice , quin and guess wat? LAOGONG too.
Bernice and I both bought a ribbon , hers being black and mine, white.
<3 lol
Th concert yesterday was good too.
omg lah. the pipa solo!
the tai feng must learn lmao.
That time yu lao shi oso solo.
siao lah. so cool can!
><
&I sense audi license coming in 3k exp's time o.o ><
1:46 PM;
Monday, August 11, 2008
title:{thorns;}
I LOVE TONY LAOGONG;
Laogongs, youu don't sad le leh>_>
Everytime I online play with people...
I also won't like everyone of them mahh.
Even if I talk to them in game...
Which I don't most of the time.
I talk to my classmate also won't like them. >_>
iyahh. i got laogong enough le lahh... T_T
I won't go out find other ppl d mah. :(
& i never throw eeyore on the floor kkays. :(
bu yao sad! :((
Ah fish it.
common test TOMORROW.
Great , because latent heat + heat capacity is greek to me >_>
& so is coord geom.
Sigh I might go crazy any moment.
At least I might for this week.
See. that PIMPLES.
and that BLACK EYE CIRCLES.
signs of stress.
O.o
ok chill me.
<3 moodrings :D
4:46 PM;
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
title:{IMISSYOU;HOWAREYOU?}
Aurora...
Did you see what happen to me now?
I have a boyf..
How have you been?
Hope you are fine wherever you are.
I wish you can find me...
I miss you...
Sister, have you found one boyf also?
Hope you are happy, and bubbly like you always were...
You can read these can't you?
Life has been getting tougher and tougher each day.
My amaths and emaths is horrendous.
And I can't get to the point in SS/History.
next week common test le.
Sigh.
You good larh. dunnid exam.
Ok maybe you have them up there, I don't know.
I don't even know where I can visit you.
So if you wanna ,come into mai dream yah.
perhaps if you thought i've forgotten. no.
You'll forever be my sister no matter what happens.
Etched deep inside my heart,
Our memories will not cease to exist.
Till the day I'm with you.
Eternally together .
Jie and Mei.
Takecares. it's been 5 years.
Do you miss me?
Cus I really do.
There doesn't seem to be anyone like you.
Who I have this bond with.
9:03 PM;
title:{LIFEBLABS}
I'm back for another post. and yes.
it is confirmed. 26august.
the day where we'll be the demo orchestra.
When the whole of singapore's CO scene is looking.
So if screw up die lorh.
But if we succeed then that'll make us assured of a gold.
At least more chances to get gold lahs.
LOL i GG-ed today.
Tony laogong send me home.
then papa called. lmao.
He waiting at the bus stop too.
Then papa saw. so yah GG.
Well I told mummy I had a BF already anyway.
But I don't seem to bother to tell papa. so yah.
heck .
8:15 PM;
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
title:{LOST}
Sometimes looking back,
When you wish for an eternity for that miracle....
The miracle is actually already there....
Waiting for you.
& sometimes we wanna wait for someone to come back...
But what if, the person already forgotten you?
That's why....
Don't give up other chances that fly by....
Catch them, hold them tight, don't ever let go.
& thats why I'm gonna hold on tightly to you.
My little miracle.
You're the reason why I still breathe.
2:16 PM;
title:{E-LEARNING -.-}
It's lucky yah.
I've just fallen sick and you tell me its a e-learning day.
>_<
I think I rather go school!
This e-learning thing actually has
much more HW then normal school days yah?
And in school you can get teachers help too. >_<
Ah nevermind. I can do it. A little more to complete physics.
& theres more to come on heymath. whoo.
Ah im hungry. Went without breakfast .
Thanks for the ninjiom laogong :)
wo ai ni :)
Don't be angry okay...
Actually, I didn't know I hung up on you leh laogong.
I really don't recall...
11:25 AM;
Sunday, July 27, 2008
title:{OURSTRAWHEARTS;}
Sigh. Can't figure how to fold the straw hearts yet!
SOS. someone teach me . >_>
I want surprise laogong :X
Yah it's true.
I'm behaving weirdly.
CO tmr. till 6pm! again!
nevermind. JIAYOU JODY.
I wonder when is e demo orchestra thingy.
26 aug? nvm. tmr i ask.
Pray tues e-learning nonid go back to co. LOL
Sigh. I think will d lorh ~
http://www.engrish.com.
Go visit.
it shows how absurdly how some people translate words to english.
((:
Yay. It feels good having not to share your guy (:
<3 laogong .
Let's study ! whooo. :D
8:04 PM;
Saturday, July 26, 2008
title:{OURSTRAWHEARTS;}
okay. yah. nothing to be scared.
In fact, i never ask gor along.
I decided to give it a try; perhaps he could be trusted.
&yes he can.
I think I feel bad for doubting him.
Cus, he's not SCARY.
Not even a little.
&in fact, he's a nice guy too.
yes.26o7o8;
OUR DAYY <3
LOVE YOU LAOGONG ; :)
STUDY TOO OKAYS?
Wo. Ai. Ni. <3
10:32 PM;
Thursday, July 24, 2008
title:{IDK;}
Lala. tomorrow going out again.
Looks like im always having something on fridays....
always go out w/ friends d.
Yah lorh.
I don't even feel like i trust him lah.
LOL
But nevermind :D
I ask gorgor alongg
:D
Got gor everything no scare . :D
7:57 PM;